Headache

Today I woke up with a headache and it took me a while to figure out why. It was the headache you get when you cry yourself to sleep which is what I did last night. I was missing my Mom and worrying about the future. Three months and it isn't any easier. Oh, I may not cry as much everyday but I miss her just as much. Today I found some stars that Mr. Giggles and I got while on vacation last year that I could not wait to show Mom. Well, I never got to show her, I never even told her about them because when we got home, our lives changed forever. I finally got them put up but there was no joy in doing it because she and I didn't get to talk about where to put them or how to hang them. I had to decide by myself. I really need my Mom's arms around me, telling me that things will be ok. I MISS HER SO STINKING MUCH. I can't. . . . .even begin to put it into words anymore.